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May 29th, 2006

12:40 am - ode to ncssm pt 1
Hi. ^_^
I was named Nia Nico Bridges by my parents, so I guess it is all right if you call my Nia. I’m a senior, c/o 06. I have approximately 12 days and 13 hours until I am a free woman. I attend the North Carolina School of Science and Math (NCSSM). I have been here for 2 years. I came here to find myself, to explore parts of me that I could not at home. However, I ended up more confused than ever…

My ode to NCSSM:

Goodbye to the good times and the bad times….
When I thought I was attracted to another female o_O
And told someone who I thought would understand
But just brushed me off as if, I got the gossip now,
And now you can go
When I cried because life at school was better than at home
The long days w/ three course meals that I didn’t usually receive at home
And the full supply of heat and air to make a girl go wild
To the long hours in American Studies watching my teachers fight
But loving them, because they were unique and honestly cared for us
And getting to know my peers, and what they thought of the world
To feeling bad about not being the best black person
And feeling left out of the “grill”
And opening up to the black juniors c/o 06,
And getting to know them and all their awesomeness
To my first and last invites weekend
A crazy night were I didn’t really fit in
But thanks to a friend who tried to help me fit in
To telling my first real crush, my best friend, that I liked him
And getting the whole, just friends speech
To seeing him a year later w/ a white size s chick
And then rebonding w/ him because of the wicked bitch from the hall called Ground E
To making bad grades and crying because it wasn’t an A
Then to not caring and adopting and accepting a b-/c+ average
To the long nights crying over genetics, precal, and American studies
To finally getting that one grade that made me smile
And know, that I really could be great
To dana squire
The chicka who opened me up and released the girl inside
Who took me shopping and inspired me artistically
Who helped me through long meeting w/ Joyce
Who I left hanging when I befriended Alexandra Jay.
To telling people what I thought and not just gossiping
To making the black crowd dislike me
Even though it was them with the problem
And accepting their come backs
About me needing a slim fast package
To accepting I’m over weight and can’t
Stop myself even if I tried
To hating the way I looked and felt
To not eating at all
To stuffing myself for comfort
For opening my music taste and expanding my horizon
For the best roommate ever, Rachel Giglen
Who told me she’d have sex w/ me if she was lesbian (not being serious though)
To the nights of wanting to tell someone I liked them
But then being tricked into liking someone else
So another friend could eye them
And then me, not being able to tell them
And having to watch and ex and him all year
And finally getting comfortable around him and all goes down the drain
To the friends I made, w/ all their smiles
To one I made at the end of my junior year, w/ her crazy faces and “realness”
Who makes me smile just thinking about her personality
To my 4b girls, who have always had my back
And who I will fight any man stealing ho for
And will comfort when down
To my friend I made in classes,
Who provided study group help
And what not
I will miss those day….
But I have to say goodbye
*tears*

Part one

Will be more part between now and june 10th… keep updated

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